Callbacks & Cupcakes

Yesterday morning I had already told myself that I wasn't going to get called back for a second audition so on to the next. I'll admit, there was a tiny pity party going on. Tiny. So when Home Depot called back, I gotta admit I was beside myself, I was pretty stoked. Usually I'm able to audition, put it aside, and move on to the next. For some reason this one was bugging me, maybe it was having to wait 2 weeks to see if I would get a callback. That's kind of unheard of, usually it's a 2-4 day turn around.

So here comes Wednesday morning, I'm excited, anxious, a bit nervous but ready. Of course, I always check and double check directions and make sure I know where I'm going. Well, today I said "I remember where it's at, I know exactly where I'm going". Errrr, Wrong! Really??!! I waited two weeks to get this callback, I was super excited when I got it and now I'm lost and I'm gonna be late. Long story short, God is good, I was only 15 minutes late, I auditioned and I think it went pretty darn good if I do say so myself. If I book it, I should hear from them by Thursday or Friday. So if you don't hear from me in the next couple of days it's probably because I didn't get it and I'm sulking and stuffing my face with about 1/2 dozen cupcakes. The End.

It's Time!

I had an amazing opportunity this past weekend to retreat. I'm not gonna lie, I wasn't very excited about going. I'm not a big fan of being away from my hubby for too long, but deep inside I know I needed it. I needed to be refreshed, rethink my thoughts, and be around women that were there for the same reason. The theme of the retreat was "It's Time" and the timing couldn't have been any better. I left to the retreat with so many questions and so many emotions (or non emotions) for those that know me, and I came back not necessarily with answers but with clarity and affirmation.

I KNOW that I am sooo blessed to have an amazing husband, really this guy is awesome, he is my best friend. It's always bummed me out that I didn't have a girl that I can call a best friend and could call me that right back, but the Lord is funny, I married a boy that is undoubtedly, 1000% my best friend and bonus, along with him came a super terrific little girl that fills my heart with joy.

I KNOW that I want to be an actress and I'm going to pursue it with all I got. Hence the new website. It's something that I've been wanting to do for a long time but I would always end up making excuses and talk myself out of it.

I KNOW that I met and met up with an amazing circle of women that I am proud to call my friends.

I KNOW "It's Time" to book a gig!!! ;)!!!

P.S. I am patiently waiting to see if Home depot calls back for a second audition on the 9th (this is a big one) and I had 2 auditions on Thursday so I'll keep you guys posted.

Auditions, where are you??

Audtions this month were pretty non-existant. I had one on Wednesday and when I got the email I almost fell out of my chair because it had been a good month since i've been out. The audition went well but the callback (if I get one) is not until March 10th! Really?!?!

All this time sitting around and waiting got me thinking if there is more that I can do. Should I take new pictures, take more classes? One problem with this, this stuff is expensive but it's necessary. I'm my own business so if I want to grow I need to invest, I need to keep learning and be ready for when Hollywood comes pounding on my door. That's right I said pounding! So in the meantime, i'll be praying and waiting. Ideally i'll get the gig, take new headshots, take a couple of classes and do a little bit of shopping of course. I'll keep you posted.

I think it's time for an update!

Wow, it's been a long time and in this long time a lot has happened. In the past 3 months i've had about 8 auditions, 4 callbacks and almost one booking. I've auditioned for Dominos, Little Caesars, Amtrak, Olive Garden, Walmart, and a few other small projects. I was 99% booked for Little Caesars and the deal fell through. Booo!! Took me a second to come to terms with the fact that I didn't get it but it's all good. Sooner or later one will hit. Hopefully sooner than later. In the meantime I just have to keep myself prepared and remember that it's a challenge, it's not going to come easy but it will come.

No autographs please ;)

Hi my friends! I know it's been a while, umm about 22 days to be exact.  I didn't realize that it had been 3 weeks since I last wrote.  To be honest, I would have let another 3 weeks or maybe 3 months go by before I wrote again. Well yesterday evening a friend asked if I had updated my blog and I was like "Nah, I don't have the oomsfa and by the way who reads it anyway".  Her response was "umm, I do".  So to my friend Lil, thanks for being my cheerleader, I needed that.

It's amazing how one kind word can make such a difference.   My day wasn't going so good, but after chatting with some great friends and having some good ol' fellowship I felt 100% better.  So thanks friends!

I opened up my computer ready to write and as I was surfing the internet, I came across this. Finally!! Enjoy!!

All Donovan Fans, Please Stand Up!

So last time we met I said I was sure something exciting was going to happen and something did.  Well at least for me it was exciting.  You see we're big soccer fans, Galaxy fans to be exact. We have season seats, so we spend most of our weekends at the stadium during soccer season.  

I'm a HUGE Landon Donovan fan and on Saturday I was asked to do the coin toss before the game. As most of you know when you do the coin toss the captains and referees are there and who's the Galaxy captain you ask.  Well none other than Donovan. Needless to say, I was super excited, so excited that most of that part of my evening is a big blur.  What I do remember is being on the field, in awe, because all of the players where about 10 ft. away, including Beckham, and just saying "Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus".  

I just kept thinking, "this is not a coincidence". Nothing is a coincidence in the life of a believer.  As silly as this may sound, I know God had his hand in it. Why? Because Jesus knows I'm a huge fan, and He knew that would make my day! Out of thousands of fans, I was the one on the field!  That's crazy! Again, this might sound silly but I felt like God was telling me "I'm here, I hear you, I know you, just relax, have fun and stop worrying".  Honestly, He made a small dream of mine come true. I believe He wanted to give me a little taste of what He has in store for me.

He's knows every detail in my life, He's concerned about every detail in my life, He even knows I'm a huge Donovan fan and here's the picture to prove it.

20 days of Silence

So what has it been, about 20 days?  These past twenty days have felt more like twenty weeks.  So emotionally exhausting that I contemplated not blogging anymore because honestly I didn't have anything productive to say.  Just as I don't like to hear Aliyah whine, I'm sure you didn't want to keep hearing me whine.  

Well, I'm sitting here today in a much better place.  Filled with peace and joy and really nothing on the outside has changed.  I still haven't gotten any auditions, I still have to go to work everyday, be a wife, housekeeper, bookkeeper, dogkeeper, you get the picture.  It's just amazing the peace and joy one can feel once you put all your faith and hope in the Lord and trust that He wants and has nothing but the best for us.

It's been a very painful pruning process, a time of suffering, that's for sure.  I just know that something great is going to come out of this because like I learned on Sunday @ church, great things come from suffering.  It produces fruit; patience, joy, knowledge, maturity.  You glorify God.  It's a time when God has to get rid of something inside of me that's just not good.  

It may be painful but all I can say is I'm excited.  I'm super excited to see what the Lord has in store for me.  This very excitement puts me here, writing away.  I know that I will have some fun and exciting news to share.  When and what, I don't know, but I'll keep you posted.  So until we meet again.